CATting and Beyond
The soft drizzle outside and the gloomy skies perfectly complement my mood today.
The CAT is over and done with, and with it probably my best chance of charting out a new career course for myself.
It's frustrating, actually. After all the mocks throughout the season, you unconsciously tend to expect at least your average score on D-Day...you aren't prepared for one of your worst papers of the year.
Sometimes, it feels that eight-odd months of 'focussed preparations' is too extravagent an investment to make for as capricious a goal as 'cracking CAT'. How else do I explain a much better performance last time around, when the preparations were so much less?
Sometimes, I feel CAT rewards the instinctive, intuitive person more than the hard-worker who is grounded in his fundamentals. If so, why succumb to the pulls of these darn coaching institutes?
Sometimes, I feel you need to be damn lucky on THE day to succeed.
Sometimes, ...naa, most times, life just ain't fair.
It's tough getting back to office the next day and realising that what had been a secondary vocation for the past few months needs to be given primacy of position...and fast.
It's a horrid feeling to realise that all your dreams of a satisfying alternate career have just been dealt a severe blow.
Maybe this is where I start to lead a life of 'quiet desperation', yeah, like those housewives on TV do. But I've got to not give into that. I've got to not to, got to not to....
So Iam still hopeful. I do have a couple of strong points to take out of the CAT. Maybe, just maybe, it'll see me through. And I still have a couple of shots at top-colleges this year. Maybe that's my ticket to wherever I want to go.
As an aside, whenever you feel down and depressed, and if you're any kind of a loner, and if you live in a coastal place, check out the beach at night.
One place where you can rant to your heart's content with no reply other than the sea ranting back at you, where the never-ending roll of the waves lulls you into a strange sense of security, where the swirling wind in the pitch-black night gets you seeing your future better with a sudden clarity, a place which fills your senses and makes you realise that life really is beautiful after all, and that it's days like these that make it all the more so.
posted by Jonas at 11/21/2005 02:12:00 PM |
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"The soft drizzle outside and the gloomy skies perfectly complement my mood today."
We need more rain in Chennai!!
"The CAT is over and done with, and with it probably my best chance of charting out a new career course for myself. "
Well, its not the end of the day.
"It's frustrating, actually. After all the mocks throughout the season, you unconsciously tend to expect at least your average score on D-Day...you aren't prepared for one of your worst papers of the year. "
Thats why they are called mocks.I think that it is perfectly human to fold under pressure.Just like all the other exams we have written.We think we could have done better AFTER the exam.Even in sports the players make great plays during practice/fooling around but during the real one.. they might do something stupid.
"Sometimes, it feels that eight-odd months of 'focussed preparations' is too extravagent an investment to make for as capricious a goal as 'cracking CAT'. How else do I explain a much better performance last time around, when the preparations were so much less?"
One word: FATE(spelling??)
"Sometimes, I feel CAT rewards the instinctive, intuitive person more than the hard-worker who is grounded in his fundamentals."
Yes, you are right.GRE,GMAT,CAT are exams that u must improvise unlike our board/final exams.
" If so, why succumb to the pulls of these darn coaching institutes?"
Because of the "everyone else is going/joining" factor.
"Sometimes, I feel you need to be damn lucky on THE day to succeed."
....Maybe
"Sometimes, ...naa, most times, life just ain't fair."
Life is fair.. Think for a moment what all you have that others don't.
" It's tough getting back to office the next day and realising that what had been a secondary vocation for the past few months needs to be given primacy of position...and fast."
Ohh..stop whining..it's not like you dont get paid handsomely....lol
"It's a horrid feeling to realise that all your dreams of a satisfying alternate career have just been dealt a severe blow.
Maybe this is where I start to lead a life of 'quiet desperation', yeah, like those housewives on TV do. But I've got to not give into that. I've got to not to, got to not to....
So Iam still hopeful. I do have a couple of strong points to take out of the CAT. Maybe, just maybe, it'll see me through. And I still have a couple of shots at top-colleges this year. Maybe that's my ticket to wherever I want to go.
As an aside, whenever you feel down and depressed, and if you're any kind of a loner, and if you live in a coastal place, check out the beach at night.
One place where you can rant to your heart's content with no reply other than the sea ranting back at you, where the never-ending roll of the waves lulls you into a strange sense of security, where the swirling wind in the pitch-black night gets you seeing your future better with a sudden clarity, a place which fills your senses and makes you realise that life really is beautiful after all, and that it's days like these that make it all the more so."
Everything happens for the best- This has proved true for me everytime in my life, whether I obtain a good or bad outcome.But, at the same time, I learn from each one experience.I think you can take a lot away from the (rigorous??) training you underwent.
And last thing---
THE RESULTS AREN'T OUT YET!!!!...
Thanks
Abhishek Krishnan
V. nicely written :)
And as the other commenter said, the results aren't out yet...all the best :)
Thanks ppl, for the words of encouragement...Appreciate it! :-)
@Abhi,
Agree with you pretty much on all but a couple of points...
Life is not fair! No one gets the same opportunities, some ppl get more than they deserve,some get less...but in the end, your success depends on how comfortable you are with that fact and how you circumvent it.
And I like to think I didn't fold under pressure here. Have a high accuracy to back that up...they shud really look at accuracy as a factor for admissions, you know ;-)
Just too few attempts on my part, that's the story.
whats up with ur other friends... r they afraid to go to the left??...lol
"Life is not fair! No one gets the same opportunities, some ppl get more than they deserve,some get less...but in the end, your success depends on how comfortable you are with that fact and how you circumvent it."
How do you know that they get more than they deserve..do u follow their foot steps..it might look to you that they get it easy but in another area they might have to work hard.You know the law of Averages?
For eg. every one of the tamil medium students in our college thought u had it easy because u speak english well but you might have had to work hard to grasp the concepts of the field of study while the others might have had to learn english while they could grasp the concepts easily.
This might not be true but u get my drift?
"And I like to think I didn't fold under pressure here. Have a high accuracy to back that up...they shud really look at accuracy as a factor for admissions, you know ;-)
Just too few attempts on my part, that's the story. "
Well maybe "fold" is a misnomer.Let's just say we are more vulnerable to make mistakes under pressure.I was watching PRO football the other day and one team dropped 13 catches and like Tony Greg would say "It was a sitter"...lol
Also, maybe you took more time because u got "caught up" in the other questions..hence, the result of few attempts..lol..I am analyzing.. Industrial engineers do a lot of this...lol..like they say or like we say
"
Engineers make things
Industrial engineers make things better"....LMAO
with all that said and done... I expect a big lunch when I come there next month.After all you do owe your friends a big one after being accepted to IIM???
Thanks
Abhishek Krishnan
Abhi, I completely believe in the Law of Averages....we don't have much of an alternative, do we? ;-)
but a fair game is one where the end result is directly proportional to the efforts you put in..and that just doesn't happen in life!
We never have full control...we go where we are led to...like Forrest Gump says in the movie..hmm, I forget the exact words, but that's what I believe in..and that's why I think it's important to not expect life to be fair.
And u a hardcore Industrial Engineer now??...LOL..sounds good!
And sure, if I get through, 'a big one' is a given ;-)...
When are u here, anyways?
I think it was "life is like a box of chocolates.You never know what you're gonna get"
I seriously think that you should start writing for the Hindu editorial
That way I can call you and ask what EVERY line means!!!
yeah...im TRYING to be an industrial engineer
you dont need to worry about when I'll be there but you can make sure that I'll be there for your party..I hope the party is at a 5 star hotel..I dont do 3 stars any more....!!!!!....lol
thanks
Abhishek Krishnan
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